The Future

I realize at times that I can be a pretty flip-floppy guy. I often change my feelings on many issues, people, and ideas. Like right now, I don't know if I should keep my hair long and this killer goatee goin'. I have frequently felt pretty uncertain about my involvement on what I used to call "my senior project," like I was graduating from elementary school. I would easily find it common if people called me floppy disk.

Or not, as that is clearly an awful nickname.

As someone who has six weeks left in the most hectic time of his life (school related), I can clearly see that nothing actually matters. 50 some odd days to finish the work that I have to finish, but also 50 days left to spend with the likes of my friends, whom I might not see again. 50 days to work on a project I'm exhausted with and a paper I don't have any ideas for, but also 50 days to be myself in this environment. None of these things are worth holding me back.

So, in totality, I should treat everything like I am doing it for fun and because it's my last chance to do this stuff. I will soon be a boring, fully grown adult, and have responsibilities. Even sooner, I'll be married, with bills and more life to live.

Even though I find myself to be rather flippity-flop in all sorts of respects, you can't expect life to stay constant either. I think that's a pretty good excuse; I mean, if I attempt to find some middle ground, isn't there the fear that life will throw some curve ball that changes everything?

What I'm trying to say, is that I will soon have a graduation montage to be a part of, and then everything changes in its entirety.